My Wonders.

Full of wonders.

Wondering when will I ever know.
Wondering where do I stand.
Wondering who I am to you.
Wondering how long more I have to wait.
Wondering how long I can last.
Wondering why I am breaking down.
Wondering how much I can take.
Wondering how much I can bottle in.
Wondering why is it so hard.

The list of wonders.
It will never end.

-=iNa=-

I don’t mean to feel like this
Don’t mean to think like this
My heart just has to be sure
That the love that I give to you
That’s the love that I get from you
I need to be safe and secure

Please keep me in your heart
If we have to ever part
Don’t forget to remember me

~Remember Me - T.I. ft. Mary J. Blige~

Journey.

Someone mistook me.
Told me to check my background.
Asking me to check if I'm really not adopted.
I teared.
I had that playing in my mind when I was a child.
How old was I at that time?
Seven? Eight?
Tell me should I entertain that thought again?

-=iNa=-

Thoughts. II

Now it seems that I am in the wrong.
Misunderstood time and again.
Fine, I'm always wrong.
So be it.
No matter what I do.

If only expletives can make me feel better.
But too bad, it won't.

Bottling it up, exploding and dropping dead sounds much better.
Way much better.
I'm already bottling.
So, when will I explode and drop dead?
Really looking forward to it.

Smile when I do.
Be happy for me.

-=iNa=-

Feelings II

What to do when you are...

Happy?
SMILE!

Angry?
Smile.

Sad?
Smile.

Confused?
Smile.

Just smile.
Face everything with a smile and it will be alright.

So, start smiling already!

-=iNa=-

Life. II

Trust
Promise
Relationship
Heart

The four important things in life that breaks without a sound, yet hurts a lot.

I am just feeling weird.

-=iNa=-