Why?

It's not that I do not trust.
I do.
It's just a lingering thought.

Who are they?

That gut feeling.
Something is not right.
Somehow it does make me uncomfortable.
Something that you are holding on to.
Someone that you can not let go.
Do tell me.

If I need to disappear, I will.
When that happens, no matter how near, I will be invisible.
Unseen by you.

Why?
Why?
Why?
And more why?

I just need to understand myself.
One complicated girl.

On a more happier note...

CONGRATULATIONS!
To my dearest Darling, KEN LIM!
He passed his TP already!

-=iNa=-

Whatever.

Been a long time.
I'm back.
With mundane news.

I passed my BOT.
Thank goodness.
Next unit.
Still in discussion.
Keep up the grades.
Reach console in 5 years time.
Right.
Yeah right.
Macam faham.

I want to watch Monsters Inc.

Maybe it's the trying times.
To see how we fare when we're tested.
Somehow, yours truly is not handling it well.
Not that I'm unable to trust people.
Just that I wonder why I'm not included.
Partly, I'm to blame.
For all the all too mighty front that I'm used to having.
Partly, I'm just not used to being too crowded, messy and what not.
I'm an organized person.
Having said that, it does have it's disadvantages.
Maybe that's why.
And partly, I just don't know what else.

I miss my friends.
I miss my besties.
I miss my cousins.
I miss my you-know-who.

Staying up all night thinking, trying to put things at the back of my head, thinking of just trying to fall asleep just drains the life out of me.
And just how I get to sleep at night?
With tear stained cheeks and wet stains on my pillow.
Yes, that's how it is.

I still haven't get my answers.

Well, that's all folks.
Till the next depressing update.

-=iNa=-