Gloves

I was not thinking of you when the thought strike.

Trying to fall asleep but i was freezing.

Making myself feel warm with BlueBlanket.

Those gloves that I really like and lost at Disneyland came into mind.

Then your gloves and where it was, came into mind.

All because I recalled you saying that mine was a few dollars more as I sent in my gloves too.

This entry is redundant.

-=iNa=-

Turn It Up - Pixie Lott

Baby, its over, we both know, lets go forward.
I love you, but in a different way, I love you, forever.
Now that we've come to the end of a story-y and I know that it's gonna be hard for me.
Might hurt some, might get too much, but I gotta let it be.
As the world turns around and we go different places, new things, new dreams, new faces.
Wanna shake up, when we break up, but we keep our memories.

'Coz I know you can't stay, so I won't be waiting, anticipating for the fall.
We had our time, baby, so I won't be waiting, anticipating for the call.

Turn it up, turn it up for the people that say "we're moving on and we'll be okay".
Turn it up, turn it up for the people that say "we're moving on and we'll be okay".

Baby, it's better, and I want you, to be happy.
Sometimes people find that it's so hard just to say goodbye.
It ain't easy the more and the more you try.
So they'll be cheating, be deceiving, but not me and my boy.
We understand that we're friends and it just ain't working, no point in the constant fighting.
So we'll be grown ups, for a minute, and admit that we're just not in it.

I know you can't stay, so I won't be waiting, anticipating for the fall.
We had our time, baby, so I won't be waiting, anticipating for the call.

Turn it up, turn it up for the people that say "we're moving on and we'll be okay".
Turn it up, turn it up for the people that say "we're moving on and we'll be okay".
Turn it up, turn it up for the people that say "we're moving on and we'll be okay".
Turn it up, turn it up for the people that say "we're moving on and we'll be okay".

I might lose my mind for a while, but I'll be fine (fiiiine).
Have you heard there's this thing that heals, and it's called time (tiiiime).
Clock can tick away, happy will fall in place.
And though, my heart will break, a new me will fill the space.

I know you can't stay, so I won't be waiting, anticipating for the fall.
We had our time, baby, so I won't be waiting, anticipating for the call.

Turn it up, turn it up for the people that say "we're moving on and we'll be okay".
Turn it up, turn it up for the people that say "we're moving on and we'll be okay".
Turn it up, turn it up for the people that say "we're moving on and we'll be okay".
Turn it up, turn it up for the people that say "we're moving on and we'll be okay".

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I finally found THE song.
THE song that best describes us.

-=iNa=-

Breakeven – The Scripts (Maddie Jane Acoustic Cover)

I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing
Just prayed to a God that I don't believe in
'Cause I got time while he got freedom
'Cause when a heart breaks, no it don't breakeven

His best days were some of my worst
He finally met a girl who's gonna put him first
While I'm wide awake he's no trouble sleeping
'Cause when a heart breaks, no it don't breakeven

What am I gonna do
When the best part of me was always you and
What am I suppose to say
When I'm all choked up and you're okay and

I'm falling to pieces
I'm falling to pieces

They say bad things happen for a reason
But no wise words gonna stop the bleeding
'Cause he's moved on while I'm still grieving
'Cause when a heart breaks, no it don't breakeven

What am I gonna do
When the best part of me was always you and
What am I suppose to say
When I'm all choked up and you're okay and

I'm falling to pieces
I'm falling to pieces
I'm falling to pieces
I'm falling to pieces

You got his heart and my heart and none of the pain
You took your suitcase, I took the blame
Now I'm tryna make sense of what little remains, oh
'Cause you left me with no love and no love to my name

I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing
Just prayed to a God that I don't believe in
'Cause I got time while he got freedom
'Cause when a heart breaks, no it don't breakeven
No it don't breakeven, no

What am I gonna do
When the best part of me was always you and
What am I supposed to say
When I'm all choked up and you're okay and

I'm falling to pieces
I'm falling to pieces, yeah yeah yeah
I'm falling to pieces, oh I’m falling to pieces
I'm falling to pieces

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Go watch her on YouTube or on the link on my FB page.

=)

-=iNa=-

Chapters II

The chapter that I never wanted for it to end, ended yesterday.
I have to start on my next chapter now.
Be strong.

The previous post was unlike me with the curses.
My apologies.
I guess I got too carried away.

Got all my things back from his place.
Passed back his items to him.
But I forgot the book.

I will still have the chance to pass him at work.
It is just a book but not just any book.
Will get one of my colleagues to help.

Managed to ask him to smile for me for the last time.
Smile we did.
Even though it hurts for the both of us.

-=iNa=-

My happiness

The irony.

The happiness that I felt last night was brought upon by another person.
The sadness that I feel this morning is brought upon by you.

Shouldn't it be the other way round?

Fuck it.

Why go through all the trouble to make me happy and then crash it all down in just few minutes?
Why not just break my heart, tear it to pieces and then throw me aside?

I would be able to pick myself up, move on and live my life much faster.

Seriously, fuck you.

-=iNa=-

Q&A

A friend of yours asked me why have they not seen me for so long.
I should have asked them to ask you and see what kind of answer you will give them.

The true answer is:
It is not that I do not want to meet them.
It is you who did not bring me along.

Anyone with a heart and mind to feel and think will be able to see that I am really not okay.
But you on the other hand, do not.

It is always about you, you and you.
When will I ever find the little bit of me or maybe we in that you?

-=iNa=-

Eat, Pray, Love

I was looking for this part online after I watched the movie.
The conversation between Richard and Liz.

“But I love him.”

“So love him.”

“But I miss him.”

“So miss him. Send him some love and light every time you think about him, then drop it."

I like the way he said it.
I hope I can practice this too.

Send him some love and light every time I think about him, then drop it.

-=iNa=-