Chapters II

The chapter that I never wanted for it to end, ended yesterday.
I have to start on my next chapter now.
Be strong.

The previous post was unlike me with the curses.
My apologies.
I guess I got too carried away.

Got all my things back from his place.
Passed back his items to him.
But I forgot the book.

I will still have the chance to pass him at work.
It is just a book but not just any book.
Will get one of my colleagues to help.

Managed to ask him to smile for me for the last time.
Smile we did.
Even though it hurts for the both of us.

-=iNa=-

My happiness

The irony.

The happiness that I felt last night was brought upon by another person.
The sadness that I feel this morning is brought upon by you.

Shouldn't it be the other way round?

Fuck it.

Why go through all the trouble to make me happy and then crash it all down in just few minutes?
Why not just break my heart, tear it to pieces and then throw me aside?

I would be able to pick myself up, move on and live my life much faster.

Seriously, fuck you.

-=iNa=-

Q&A

A friend of yours asked me why have they not seen me for so long.
I should have asked them to ask you and see what kind of answer you will give them.

The true answer is:
It is not that I do not want to meet them.
It is you who did not bring me along.

Anyone with a heart and mind to feel and think will be able to see that I am really not okay.
But you on the other hand, do not.

It is always about you, you and you.
When will I ever find the little bit of me or maybe we in that you?

-=iNa=-

Eat, Pray, Love

I was looking for this part online after I watched the movie.
The conversation between Richard and Liz.

“But I love him.”

“So love him.”

“But I miss him.”

“So miss him. Send him some love and light every time you think about him, then drop it."

I like the way he said it.
I hope I can practice this too.

Send him some love and light every time I think about him, then drop it.

-=iNa=-

Envy

I am seriously envious of other couples who have their other half, happily holding hands, walking around the malls, joking around and making faces to each other.

I am envious of couples who knows what they want together and have it all planned out together.

I am envious of couples who quarrels and make up after that.

I am envious that others have their special halves that understands them and really understand them so well.

I am envious.

Why do I care so much?

Why do I keep getting my heart broken?

Why do I have to keep tearing for someone who doesn't even bother about me?

Who will be there for me?

-=iNa=-